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_{❝    you have no idea how important that one is,   ❞      she mumbled,     head shaking as she took a deep breath.     she couldn’t die again;     not with the way her sister was already hanging on by a thread    (    she knew something was up,     but the last thing hayden wanted her to think was that she was in DANGER.      she had to know she was safe.    )      ❝   —-   and those pop quizzes are about a thousand times worse when you’re constantly running for your life,     but i think the rest of our classmates have to worry about that too.     there’s no SECRET to this anymore,    people are figuring it out.     maybe they’ve always known but they just didn’t know what to do with it.       they’re WORSE off if they can’t protect themselves.     that’s why we have to.  ❞       she had adapted to scott’s state of mind,    willing to do whatever it took to help even those who were clueless.     ❝    —   you’re not helping yourself,   ❞       she pointed out with a raise of a brow.     ❝   try to remember that theo already got our revenge.   ❞       hayden hadn’t realized that when they first brought him back;    she had been just as ignorant,    ready to treat him POORLY without realizing that he had suffered a worse fate than they had,   BECAUSE OF THEM.     ❝    i get it,     you HATE what he’s done   —-   i do too.     but it’s not fair for us to continue to torture him and threaten him at all,     not when he’s already been through something way worse than any of us could ever imagine,     and that’s because we sent him there.   ❞       he deserved SOMETHING,    but not that.     not this continuing.      he was still a person   —-    a person who had saved many of their lives,    someone who was willingly helping them even though they continuously gave him reason not to with all their threats.     hayden refused to sit in silence while others let it happen.   ❝    you have to let the grudge go.     if you don’t,     it’s going to get WORSE again.     you’re fueling a fire that should’ve died when we sent him down there. ❞} 

_{❛    believe me  ,  i know a lot more about that than you think.    ❜     allison came to mind   ,  aburn haired huntress flashing that golden smile as well as her polished fingernails falling flat to the concrete ground.  NOT EVERYONE makes it out of beacon hills alive.  especially if you’re a human   ——-     ,   staying alive is hard.   shaking the memory    ,   eyes turn back to the younger girl of whom spencer has sworn to PROTECT as well.      ❛    yeah   ,  no kidding.  it’s kind of hard to focus on your future when you’re just trying to stay alive to at least graduation.   i think those kids are better off.     ❜      it was astonishining her A’s remained intact while they were all being hunted by ghost riders trying to wipe the town clean of its civillians.   especially given how drastically they’d dropped in the past after they lost two of their pack members.   now   ,   the only way she was able to remain sane during all this was focusing on protecting everyone else as well as school.    a pause   ,   remaining expressionless as always when discussing theo.  hayden was right of course   ———-     ,    but stubborn mentality would never agree to admitting so.     ❛    i get why you think this.   it’s just the how part i’m stuck on.    ❜      she wasn’t quite nearly as forgiving as some of the others    ———     ,   if you burned her   ,   it was something you had to earn.   perhaps because it was just in her hastings nature to feel this way.   also due to having hardened distrust towards anyone who wasn’t apart of the pack  ,   with strict loyalty to scott.   with maybe a few exceptions.      ❛    sorry.   where i come from holding grudges is like a primary langauge.   ❜      (   especially when they kill your alpha.  )    while it really was no excuse   ,   it was true.   it played part in what made the HOUSE OF HASTINGS so toxic.   whatever the young adolsecents learned from veronica and peter   ,   was taken with them everywhere they went.      ❛    consider me a work in progress.    ❜}